Love Letter 004
January 30, 1989 From Kathy to Jim
Dear Jim,
I read your letters over and over. I too love your specific references to things I say. I love your motor load metaphor. It was beautiful. You should have seen the process that went on in me as I read that paragraph. First, resistance! “What is he talking to me about boys and motors for?” Then, oh, melt, you translated it perfectly to me. This represents how you translate the masculine for me, making it meaningful and relatable for me, and even delightful. And I am so happy to be a load for you. I love your talk of “a secret, loving place for a man’s sperm.” You didn’t offend me. That was precious.
Yes, I do want your strengthening gift to me of skills to handle intense feelings and experiences. I guess that’s what I was asking for early on.
I love the poem you sent. “Things by our sharing them put on sacredness.” Exact description of Asilomar and us. Yes, please send me more poetry. I love it and the connection with you.
Yes, you can be all those roles to me. Including my little child and mentor and teacher (as I shall be for you) and my stalwart companion. Beautiful.
Some personal feedback now. When I talk to you on the phone, I love the way your voice gets all warm and happy when you find out it’s me. I love the way your voice sounds. And that there’s always laughter and joy rippling right under the surface. That is a delight. I love that you want to tell me you love me. Well, I love you!
Here is a quote I ran across this week and want to share with you: “It is a high inducement to the individual to ripen, to become something in himself, to become world, to become world for himself for another’s sake; it is a great exacting claim upon him, something that chooses him out and calls him to vast things.” Rainer Marie Rilke
Beautiful articulation of my study and of my relationship with you.
I love you,
Kathy
